Wow, just WOW! Why didn't anyone told me this would be my happiest moment in life. Forget all the nay sayers. So many new feelings and emotions. Emotions that i cant put to words. The biggest present Mother nature can give - witnessing birth of your son! I was afraid it would be gross or I would not be able to stand the suffering of Darya.
In fact it was beautiful just beautiful. Watching his head appear. First cry! Flood of emotions you cant control. I think i was motionless and speechless couple of minutes. Standing by Darya and comforting her. then i remember holding Eric on my chest, feeling his breath, pulse and smell. Smell that probably never smelled before yet its so familiar and dear. Dam you mother nature for playing tricks on me. Tears were blocking the view of Eric and mother together. Soft groans and wimps of Eric were pleasant music. I think i was standing stunned whole time. Nurse reminded me to take pictures. Didn't pay attention to the camera setting, did not pay attention to anything but Eric. First Shots were unrecoverable.
Let me get back a day before that. friday evening doctors said that baby sack loosing fluids and we need to deliver baby as soon as possible. They gave us inducing medicine and sent us home. We planned to get back to the hospital 6am on sunday. Darya woke me up at 3am. I told her to go back to sleep it was not 5am yet. She made me understand that we need to go NOW with just one word and convincing look. I think we were not scared we were exited if anything - like kids the night before summer camp. 8am is when contractions became serious and steady. I felt guilty and helpless. I could not do a thing to help. All the breathing techniques and other things we practiced were just placebo from what i can tell. Darya told me to shut up and leave her alone. I did not suffer physically but its agonizing to know you cant help. I devoted myself to executing any requests from Darya promptly and trying to predict her needs. Look, man may be the strongest and lift a ton. But let me tell you when it comes to toughness and endurance man are no match for woman. I am still amazed by Darya's abilities. No drugs, all natural way and even smiling in between contractions.
Toronto, local time 15:58, June Eighteen Two Thousand Eleven Eric was born
Both grandmothers were restless as well. on two occasions they tried to storm through to our room. About an hour and a half after the birth I went for them to escort them to the room. Both of them were shaken up and almost crying. I think both of them understood well what it was like for Darya. All their worries just disappeared as soon as they saw Eric. Hugs, tears, joy!
Next was second sleepless night. We felt welcome at hospital mom and baby unit wing. Nurses were helpful, the whole place felt like home. There was only one chair for dad. I managed to use it and lower part of the bed to somehow get horizontal position. Mom used every second to get strength back. Nurse helped her in many ways while i was holding Eric. I discovered that i can keep Eric calm by walking the corridors. Memory of that place is sketchy and filled with gaps. At one point I dose off with Eric on my chest. Nurse came to tell me something all I could hear is some mumbling, sounds of someone talking under water.
It takes a village to rase a child. Now I have great respect for people raising children without help from relatives. Its hard to imagine what it would be to go third sleepless night. What a relief i felt when at 3 am grandmother Sveta appeared behind me and told me "Get some rest"... Thank you everyone for all your help.
I don't want to paint dim picture here. This is the greatest time of my life. Maybe its mother nature tricks maybe not, regardless Eric is my drug of happiness. I cant get enough of it. All these inconveniences is irrelevant. ITS TOTALLY WORHT IT!
- Happiest Dad evah!